Not Amuse
Saturday, May 5, 2012 @ 8:58 PM | 0 notes

Sometimes I've been thinking will someone appreciate me just as I am? Although nobody said to me that my sister is better than me, I can seem to understand their body language. Doesn't mean that I want to be much more better than her, but just that I also needed to be felt appreciated sometime. Not saying that I need my parents attention or anything, but I think they only think me as a child who likes to play and online and take a break on everything she's doing.

They don't really know what I am facing everyday. I only go online when I finished my homeworks and stuffs. I don't really show to them when I do my work. I just don't. All that they know is, me, having fun, on tumblr, twitter or anywhere else. That's what my parents knew me as.

If I'm feeling not fine or something, I'll just keep it to myself and act like I'm fine. They don't know what I'm feeling inside. They'll never know. Only me and God knows it. Not like the other person, she'll whine whenever she's feeling not well. Ugh, nevermind, I love her. I guess I have to keep everything on my own then. I don't know why I don't really like to show the other side of me. I usually show the happy, lazy and always productive side and not the petty one. *sigh*